Monday, January 01, 2007
Well well well …
Tis is my 1st post of the new year man ….
Time really flies …
I remember clearly in my head when I wrote the 1st post of 2006 when I was still using friendster blog …
As time flies …
I find that I have changed a lot …
And I really mean a lot …
In the past, when I was in sec sch,
It seems I did a lot of nonsense …
Playing truant, disturbing prefects, fighting with the express stream students ,
after that era, a new era came …
I started gambling …. Smoking … gaming … and drinking …
At that moment , tod dat was life …
Everyday jus lo0k at odds, gamble was all I did …
Was addicted to it …
It was until when I hit the recoil den did I stop …
I lost about 2k …
At that moment …
I knew clearly I have to stop …
I know my families will not help me financially …
So, when I was in sec 4, I started working …
But, although I stopped gambling ,
My another form of wasting money did not stop …
Every night , I will go to lan shops with my frends ..
Play from 6 pm till 1 am …
We also played pool …
Sometimes bowling …
Money was pouring out of my pocket …
The only good thing I had was weekly soccer games …
Which until now I still have once a while as my frends have entered ns ….
After I joined poly …
I began to drift further from my frends …
I made new frends …
And my life changes again …
At 1st , it was abt being “on”
We brought game consoles to class almost everyday ….
Turned the class to something like a arcade … haha …
Going kbox for k lunch …
Den as I advanced to year 2,
My life changed again …
My whole life was about 2 things …
Majong and dota …
Dats what I do everyday ….
And finally now …
Poly year 3 …
I feel that for once , I have changed for the better …
Now, although I still play games “ who dun ?” I still drink once a while, buys $1 toto every week which I think cant be considered as gambling … still craves for majong and kbox …
But …
I am changed …
In the past,
Whenever there is a countdown,
I will be in town area hanging ard …
But surprisingly , this year I stayed at home doing PROJECT ???!!!!
I no longer feel the urge to go town and hang ard for countdown …
In fact, I am concentrating more on my projects now …
So many things have changed …
Why did I change so many times in a short period of 5-6 years ??
Well …
Actually deep inside of myself ,
I noe the answer …
It is because I am a person that is anything …
Erm how to put it …
I am fine doing anything …
As long as I am with my frends …
So in another words, its you my frends that influence me …
I am not saying I made bad frends in the past …
But perhaps I am jus too easily influenced …
To me , doing anything is fine … so as long as I have my frends …
I remember I used to steal ..
Never once was I caught …
But on a day at admiralty mrt … I stole a erm I forgot wad and made a run for it …
After running a distance,
I turned ard and did not see my 2 frend …
So worried ,
I went back to check if they are ok and got caught …
The guy wanted to call the cops …
When he was not noticing, I ran away again …
Haha it was kinda stupid but exciting …
I also know y am I being so easily influenced by my frends ..
Its because of my family …
As some ofmy close frends know,
I hate the family I am in …
And some of my frends know,
I made a promise to myself that I will leave this family asap …
I feel that although we are a family …
There is no one I could talk to …
No one I can approach when I am in need of help …
Felt so helpless at home …
Both my parents think for themselves only …
Treats me and my 3 sisters like dirt …
Lucky for us we had our grandma with us …
She to0k care of us since birth till last aug …
If I were to stay in this family,
It would be for her …
But now without her …
When I am financially independed and after my ns ..
I will damn well move out …
In fact in the past ,
I have tods of going overseas and stay there for go0d …
Haiz … jus hate this family to the core …
Too many stuff to write if I were to write y I had them …
So I am not going to write …
Some of my frends may noe y …
Those who dun …
If wan can come ask me …
Or like a few of my frends …
Come try to physco me to no hate my family …
Haha …
It’s a new year and my 1st blog post I so emo ?!!
Sry I was being emo …
Jus letting it out …
Thanks for reading … lolz …
But frends reading this … I wan you to know, once frend , forever a frend ya …
JyTheOne(俊颖) at 12:28:00 PM
Archives
Post a Comment